Chris Parker a friend from my old school OD and died. i jsut found that out. life is peachy my one friend is in jail and will possibly be tried as an adult for stabbing someone in school and now i find out that a friend of mine has died. i need coffee and sleeping pills. he had painkillers and he i guess might not have ment to but might have i dont know. His gradfather had a heart attack at the funeral and died there. this is horrible CLHS is in shambles and i am goign to a party at bean to night via Duliez and i am going to be cheery and nothing will be wrong. but yet everything is. that is fine noon e has to know. im going to be perfect like always and not show i am hurting. i want to cry right now. tomany people have died to many fucking peole have died. and i would have. CL isnt a good place yet i and everyone else is drawn to it. its like a horror story by stephan king. a twisted horrid dream and i cant wake up. he graduated last year. he had his whole life ahead of him, i dont htink he did it on purpose at all. "noone will be able to match his sense of humor" as whitney (my oldes friend, who jsut told me about Chris) says. im at a loss for words im going to go be happy and torn inside goodbye.