Comp;Blogger;College

im in a green mood toady i have a green shirt on. Today is thursday that means W&J students are chilling in the IT class with us talking about buisnesses and communications etc. fun fun. It is actually intresting, i really want to go into fashion design but the only schools taht are good are in LA or NYC. Wonder if there is a Buisness fashion major if so that is waht i am goign to college for in Denver but if not i am going for something buisness; marketing; comps;Int'l relationis. yesterday the blogger thing wouldnt klet me on. Grrr... that is why i didnt blog anyways jaosn aodn the comp are fighting andf the comp is wining but jason kicked ass two nights ago and it is back to were it was adn it will be fixed i hope. thank you so much pook. the bell is about to ringso adios.

screwed royaly

So my comp has over 280 spyware things on it. Everytime my dad go's and went to get them off it locks up. my dad was livid and still is he wont speak to me. He said that i cant do anything until i pay for the comp. Great Jason is leaving in a little over a month nad i cant see him. Im so stupid for opening that file. so no e-mail or aim or anything on the home phon eoand my cell phone. I;m posting on othe shcools computer for blogger but that i sall i can do i can only post i cant read comments and i cant read other peoples bloggs.Las time the comp cost $300 it will take me 43 hrs to make $300 that is IF the comp cost that much prob more. adn IF my rents will let all the money i make go twards the computer. Usualy i only get half of waht i make and the other half gos in to my bank / savings account and i cna ttouch that. so it might take me a month untuil i can actually pay for the stupid thing and i cant see jaosn and he is leafvening and i screwed myslef roayly. if they accept the whole thing i can make $300 in 43 hours meaning maybe 1 and 1/2 weeks depending. Steph said that she would help me pay for it since she wants me to see jaosn but its my fault i should just pay for it gah i screwd myself roayaly. Jason please kit via phone.

Hey all im bored yes i am im in IT and there is this teacher that is a ub and he isnt old he is like 24 its crazy

next years classes

Here is next years classes:

AP English 12 - all year 1 credit THS - 4 college credits W&J or wherever i chose and they acpt.
Sociology CP - 1 semester .5 credit THS
Psychology CP - 1 semester .5 credit THS
Gym - 1 semester .5 credit THS
Hon Debate II - 1 semester .5 credit THS - 3 college credits in Argumenitive W&J or wherever accepted.
Astronomy/Meteorology CP - 1 semester .5 credits THS
Visual Basic I Comp. Prog. - 1 semester .5 credits THS - 3 college credits
Hon. Visual Basic II comp Prog. - 1 semester .5 credits THS - 3 college credits
Hon. Intro to Java - 1 semester .5 credits THS - 3 college credits
Spanish II - all year 1 credit THS
Web Design - 1 semester .5 credits THS - Certification in something
Photo III - all year 1 credit THS
AP Art History - all year 1 credit THS - 4 college credits
Study Hall- 1 (2nd) semester 0 credits

total:
14 classes
8.5 credits THS
20 college credits.

I decided to not take the AP euro history b/c it was going to be way to much so and i would go nuts b/c it was a jutca class and she is insaine when it comes to test , but a very awesoem teacher she would do anything to help you get an "a" in her class. it would have been to stressful if i got in her class so i didnt. owell only 4 credits for college gone, even number is better. i can drop classes the first 50 days of school but not after that so that leaves me almost to months to see if i want to drop and have a lunch or keep the college credits and run around and find a teacher that will let me eat in there class(shouldnt be to hard considering ppl do this all the time i jsut thought of it in my senior year go figure). Plus school more important then food yes. but yeah i know Jason food is good in the words of t2 "you and that hollow leg, i mean legs of yours"
i made it all colorful and pretty b/c i am so lavishly borde right now i have nothing to do until 5-6 grrrr.... i need to get my liscence so i could be at least driving around amelessly or something. i might just to into my room and read and listen to Ani Difranco or something i really dont want to waatch t.v. or be on the net. its 3pm now what can i do for another 3 hrs? i have already worked on tohe buisness for my time today and got that out od the way around 11 b/c i didnt know what i was doing today or when i was doing somethig so that was a waste of getting up. cant go back to sleep b/c im not tired.
i had a fun time the whole day on friday no school so jason came and picked me up and he showed me around were he use to live and these neat waterfalls. the whole place would be so kick to actually take black and white photos there. i think i might have to go back and do that when i am taking pohoto next year. then we chilled at t1's house and then we pilled in t2 stang and went to u-town ate dinner, then to maxx's. all the while i was tring to get t2 to get me to white knuckle(never did/wouldnt) and all who know me and my past experiances well i dont do that so this should make for an intresting time next time, im goin to keep pursuing thisone lol. so we went back to t1's jason and i left we chilled at my house adn watched LOR 1 and part of disc 2 i feel asleep...opps. i even drank coffee but that didnt help sorry babe! all in all it was a fun and good night.
Cafe bean is closed it closed ths. i am pissed there is nowere to hang out that high school kids arnt there tha twa slike my non-high school sanctuary b/c of the 18 and up thing so yeah that sucks major but hopefully everything will work out and it will open agian ..Go chaz you can do it!! i got my trans. for h/s out a few days ago i am 233 or 223 one of the two numbers out of 356 this is horrible im not even in the top like 50% no college will look at me i dont want to end up going to a com. college b.c that would just bite or a 2 yr college that wont do(unless it is a fash. school or somehtin gof that line but they are all in NYC or LA so yeah that bites major i know this why b/c i was seriosuely thinking aobout it over th esummer adn the whole 2004 so i know all the good ones and all the ones are in Ca los angelas and that is nowere near were i want to go to college or finish school at grrr...) as well if i go to college then it will be a 4 yr thing and that is that. parents annoy me my mom brang the whole college factor up adn was like "you cant even get into college" and then she was like " well you know adrianne , if you dont want to go to colleg ethat is ok with me, you dont have to" i was lik eo"ok 1 dont start this me not goin to college agin and dont bash my majors you already talked me out of bneing a lawyer in 9th grade so thanks no you dont want me to go into phsyc." her" you dont want to sit and listen to all the nuts complain about there problems all day do you? " i just looked at her " plus they dont make alot" me "so know what what do you approve of?" my brain: i was one of those nuts stupid, you sent me there, oh wait no one is spose to know thats right "family secret".

oh the things i think of and refrain from saying....


im still utterly unamused.

Am i setting up for a failure?

I had a realization today, as i was sitting in H/R doing my scheduale for next year it hit me. I am tring to boggle myself so far down in work and school next year, Like i am tring to run away but since i can't run i engulf myself in work and school. Nxt year i think i will have two jobs one that i have had for 6 years and then working secretarial and teching at sylvan, then when i turn 18 i am def working at VS that is a def. the PNC bank offered me a job as well but when i told them i wasnt 18 and still in h/ sthey were like come back when your 18 you will have a job. I know i am setting myself up fo ra failure by taking on so many jobs and school classes. im not going to have a lunch that is a definaate. im taking 3- 4 honors courses (so it can weight down on my GPA and class rank) and def 3 AP classe. Total 24 college credits adn a computer certification. I think scratch that know i am also doing this 35% to make the year go fast, 25% b/c i need weighted grades to boost the GPA and rank b/c i am finally gettings eriouse about school go figure better late then never right?? and 5% b/c i need something to amuse me and i cant do the same thing every day, and 60% so i wont have time to notice and think that jason is gone and that i am no longer near him. did i mention i dont have a lunch and the only reason i am taking a study hall is b./c my mom made me so i can at elast get a "d" in spanish II and pass that stupid class. Why cant i just clep out of the language for Russian i can speak that spanish is giong to suck. if i didnt have to take a s/h then i would take hons great books disscusion with Fusiler. but that isnt going to wrk so...yeah faliure here i come. at least i can get stephs notes adn stuff from some of the classes.

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So i am walking down the main hall goign to 2nd pd and im in te middle of the hall and this guy comes rollin gdown the hall with a shopping cart , you know the ones from a grocery store. so yeah my school is always inresting anyway today is "ultra prerry day" adn alot of ppl are like "Age WTF you never dress like this", then i saw rach adn she was like" Age, its scary how you can pull an all black goth look off one day and then this the next damn. not to mention you look way to comfortable in preppy." i was like "yeah well you know gotta supor the seniors *laughed* then i was like prep is an attitude adn that i have lol" she was like "yeah you def have that lol" we both laughed adn i went to homeroom.
Im in my IT class and we are in a dif room so i am listening to one of my fav cds havnt listened to it in a while. the faint good band but its for an aquired taste. lol so yeah its like a techno punk/grunde band lol its so kickin'...ok anyway i love this cd haha im going to post some lyrics. I let steph listen to 2 songs adn she was like "OMG Adrianne, do you know what the lyrics say?" i was like yeah but its so funny haha its great check this one out adn i let her listen to it she was laughing it was hilariosue this band is good. Its sad that only Hot Topic ppl know about it haha but owell taht is why i love the place they have great corsets (except for fredricks and VS) and awesome music.
I Havnt been able to concentrate at all this week.( yeah i know ADD but i havnt been able to stay on task at all adn usually i am good abotu staying on task at least but this week nope not at all.) I have this overwhelming feeling of detachment. From what i am not really sure i do know but i dont want to admitt to it i just want to keep living in my own land of adrianne. this is never a good thing i need to talk to kait, she understandswere i am coing from usually since we have been through alot together and we have been though most fo the same things etc etc. I mean mentaly i have two mind sets one is reality which of couse is nice to visit but i am living in a very vivid fantasy world and it sucks b/c it is going to come crashing down soon. That is never a good thing. I need to talk to Kait ASAP she will know what to do, she helped me through my last 2 mental breakdowns yeah they were exactly that and they wernt fun at all. this wont be a mental breakdown i have absolutly no strees my grades are good for one purpose well 2 purposes but still one weighs more, Zoom called me and wants me to renew my contact with the agency asap so i have to schedual that and find more agencies etc then um i m done with the gov school audition thing so no stress until May, im good for one more month *does a happy dance*
When i set my mind on something it usually happens but its not and this is getting annoying. I talked to kait about the thing i am getting and she is like "yeah blah blah blah that will be an awesoem idea that reminds me i need to get that back from kristin" so yeah i have everything together all i need is to go and see how much, were, how long it will take etc. mall here i come, plus i need to get my dads gift. ok sorry see i told you not on task at all back to the disconnection um yeah that needs to go away.

havnt updated in a while. sorry. havnt had time. so i went on my audition for gov. school of the arts. I think it went well. I felt like i had an enterogue why b/c my mom, dad and my jason came with me so yeah i had ppl there. Anyway i hop ei get in then it means 5 weeks of no parents up at mercy hurst college YES but if i dont get in then it means vacation on the beach with parents and noone else ...jason come with come with!!
My weekedn rocked so much and i do mean rocked....yay it was fun i had a great time. Jason your amazing in EVERYWAY! Last night Jason and i went to Hollywood Video adn rented the grudge and The Order adn the bill was like 6.66 it was so neat. ok anyway that was a fun night except when my dad found out the settings on the comp were changed yeah he was pissed at me and so on and so forth. but he will get over it. Saturday Jason and i spent the whole day literatly at bean adn it was cool then we went to the mall adn looked aroung as soon as i get my paycheck i am going on a shopping spree at VS or Fredrick's depending on how much i have and were i go. hmmm....i dont have school on friday aka this friday good friday so yeah no school means i am free adn i havnt nothing to do i think i am going to wake up early and be bored until jason calls or gets off work or somthing. but it also means i can stay out till 11 at bean on thursday and jason can stay till that time after at my house so yay that is good..mental note never put the phone on silent again.....
T2 is coming back on Tue. so this aught to fun lol he is so crazy. anyway hopefully we all can hang out. Jason, T2, Ashley and myself. So i am sitting here in my IT class and i am watching foamy cartoons this is awesoem i love being able to bypass shit on the shcools comps haha funfun, one of these days im gonig to get introuble and i will say "opps, but it let me do it" so anyways that is my defense against that.

OK so i need to update more often but anyways one month woot woot so happy. I hope i can go to bean tomarrow night. Anyways i am so amused mrs burty came up to me today and asked me about the comp tech guy and how that went and she was like yeah i told him i would tell him the "wrong info" if you woudl get introuble. so i will type out that conversation when i am at home. i really want to grauate so baddly so so bad so i can leave but one omreo year so painful so trecheriouse i HATE HIGHSCHOOL i have more then enough credits its only Eng 12 that is holing me back why cant i jsut graduate and be done with it i want to go to college and be free. i hate hs garda she is so stupid she is likethere is no possible way to graduate btu yeah there is ppl graduate when they are in 11th grade and they graduated from THIS SCHOOL!! if i graduated this year he wouldnt have to leave me and i wouldnt have togo crazy and us both be unhappy btu that isnt going to happen so yeah im stuck in h/s and in pa for another year damn damn daman i will have noone in hs with me b/c yeah all my friends are like seniors adn college students so this sucks maybe i can convince my rents to let me take school over the net or somthign gah this sucks horribly. this next year is giong to be so hard and annoying and painful even thoughit is my senior year gah WHY???? always somethign good happens adn it defeates the good twith somethign bad "these are the days of my life" woopie im ranting and i need to stop im a selfishbitch, and i am so sorry, but i cant help myslef i am outspoken adn that is that. i say waht is on my mind adn it hurtsppl so i am not goign to say what is on my mind anymore im done

crap

grrr i got freaked out and logged off so yeah my post was deleted it didnt haev a chacne to save damn. hope i dont get called down to the officve that would suck btu i can explaint ot orr and snoke that i didnt do anythign wrong i was jsut "curiouse" thats all adn if thy freakout on me then they shoudl have a better system. well a better gaurded system or a better person that gfuardes that system so yeah. anyways i am in a study hall thing b/c of a speaker adn me having that same teacher twice. so i am listening to tsunami bomb and was in dos but i got freaked so yeah this site is secure so i hope. anyways i was in it adn it was taking really long the first tiem i got into it ti took like 3 sec to load in to thes/c but then i got out of it adn text *you* to get cool things to come up and i figured i would go in a mess around in there so i went to bring it up agian adn yeah it came up as blah blah (2) and i click finish adn it took like almost a min but befor a min was up i jsut freak and was liek shit so i went and auto logged off or somthing so i got back on and nkow i am typing btu i am not sure weather it was dblah ablah (2) the first tiem b/c i jsut hit enter and it ran so owell . im VP so the prinipals should be ok and i wasnt donig anythign bad so i should be fine. im posting another blog later about waht i was typing b/e i think the bells about to ring.

alright so a last week at lunch I was like "here steph read this." and she was reading out of one of my many note books and she was like "holy shit adrianne, this is why I need a vibrator" I just looked at her and smiled. Then we both just bursted out laughing. It was hilarious you had to be there I guess. So many inside jokes and stories. Ok anyway so last week Thursday SUCKED MAJORLY can't even make it to 6 months gah I suck!!! thank you so much steph, your the best chick-friend there is! owell it was a start, just have to start over.... So this weekend kicked so much ass I don't think I have laughed and had so much fun haha it was great. All of my weekends and weeknights have improved immensely since the begining of Feb woot woot!! all my weekends are blending together ahh haha. so this weekedn ... i think Jason took me to Cici Pizza we had a fun time we chilled there ate alot and then went to eatin park and drank some chi, i told him so "fun facts" *sarcasum* and then wentback to my house. Saturday Jason came over before i had to leave for USC's play. He came over and stayed for a few hours and we ended up talking and tickling in the kitchen that was fun!! its hilariouse my parents are like drop by anytime and i m like "YES" haha they never say that about anyone haha its funny. OK so the play it was Oklahoma it was a good play i liked it the orgistra/pit needed work though. but all in all it was good. i saw Jimmy M. there and he got on me about not auditioining haha everytime i see him he is like "why didnt you auditioin your so good at acting and singing" then i was like "um...i wasnt pepared" ( i was going to sing one of the songs from my cusins Cirque du Soliel's Alegria showthat shw is in if your in Japane or going there SEE IT) He is like "i could have giving you some music so you wouldnt have to be unprepared you should have sang Happy Birthday" and i was like " Yeah that woudl go over REALLY well with Ms. O" and we both laughed about that it sucks he is a senior adn i wont be able to preform with him again but owell i made that choice not to audition besides i like how i spend my weekends, much better then play practice for sure!!!! i said if i get a chance that i would def come adn help with costums. then i was like " but i will def. come see you and steph and everyone i will bring a whole bunch of ppl" and he was like" that is great but you should have auditioned" then i switched the subject to him giving me the questions for the schools newpapper b/c they are doing an article on Cirque since i have fam. in it. then Sunday Jason and T2 and Ashley came over to pick me up and we went to this little resturant that is sooo adorible! its in an old victorian style house and they have THE BEST FOOD love the choc. silk pie. ashley and i split two meals between us adn jason and i split dessert. then i ate the rest of ashley's pie b/c she didnt want it haha im such a pig! ppl that say i dont eat FUCK YOU! lol soanyway we chilled in the parking lot after wards i foujnd out i can fit into a trunk or a mustang woot woot for me that was fun...115 woot woot...."Pig".....t2 i like how you drive buddy! what jason dosnt teach me you better haha. oyes jason your teaching me how to drive *better* :p lol. so then we dropped ashley off and chilled at my house for a few then they left. that was a fun day. um lets see what did i learn over the weekend that i miss CL alot more then i ever thought i could yeah i actually wish i could find some pplk from there and get back in the loop...we will see what happens. CL is bad for me but owell also i learned i can fit in a turnk. i guess that is a good ting for some reasons haha trunk hatchback...hmmm...oman so many stories from Kent ahhh. I LOVE FAST CARS i should hate thembecuasse i have lost alot of good friends and ppl via accidents involving cash,racing,and stupidity but dont i love them and i love racing. being on the highway and seeing the speedomiter is insaine its like i was in a trans...it brang back everything from AJ's and half my old "crews" death and Adam getting in that horrible accident and not being able to walk for a few months to me sitting in the passinger seat and almost slamming into a wall and numeriouse other occastions that involve cars. so many ppl lost but i dont hatefast cars i actually want one what drives me to want one i have absolutly no clue.

SAT,BEAN, ETC

so jason and i have seen each other for 5 days sreight woot woot...everytime i seee *you* you make me smile and so happy! i think i am goin to go to bean before my SAT class tonight to get some coffee and so i can stay awake its math adn god i hate math...not hate it jsut dont liek it that much so mym mom is taking me at 6:30 and i am pretty sure that they have take out or wahtever so i can take it to the SAT thing if not i wil just get a jones soda or something. the hardest thing for me to do is say waht i want i like everyting lol owell what ever! i am so indesivice but hey tha tis me.

I have been having "deshavue" lately (yeah tha tis deff not how you spell that but owell sound it out) this can be a good thing or a bad thing lol i have no clue hmm maybe i wont go to bean b/c i dont wan tto get ther and be like you have to go things right? and then Vince or Chaz belike um ...no sorry so yeah not goin to do that. i think i might go to bean tomarrow nightthough b/c my mom is like yeah you can go places if you keep uyour grades up so i think i might press for that one. hopefully she will let me. well i ahevb to go toe the SAT thing so im out.

woot woot

WOOT WOOT Jason is coming over tonight woot woot go us yeah! he is coming over therfor i have to go do h/w and other crap so i will cyeah later...reapeat of last night hopsefully!

Fanfuckingtastic no school!!

Ok today NO SCHOOL yeah "FAN-FUCKING-TASTIC " and "BRILLIANT" as T1 would say! woot woot so yeah no school. Jason came over last night to pick up his Deviant Behavior book and my mom was like "tell him to come in" so iw as like ok "come in" and then we were all like woot woot! so yeah he stayed over from like 5ish to 8ish and that was fun we chilled and ate food and watched the news (fasinating) so yeah then we were rolling around wresling/tickling each other...YES he is ticklish and likes to be tickled (so he says) haha so yeah that was fun. Jason your the best, i "<3" you..

Maybe if he gets a chance or wants to he can come over agian today/night watever and we can watch dracula 2000 and ticklefight what not. So i woke up today with not the many balck and blue marks as i would have expected wwoot woot for me....no, noone beats me we just wrestled ;) (that was so fun love it) so yeah that was that i shoved the drive way today kinda....they should make shoveling the drive in high heels a winter sport of course i would win but eyah that was fun i think that the only time i wear flats is either in gym or when i really dont want to wear heels which is like never so yeah....im short what else is new NOTHING...im borde come visit me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

last night i didnt have an SAT class so woot woot for me! i was so happy last night it was insaine good times good times! i havnt had any coffee yet today so i think i might make a pot of regular coffe that my dad always gets , then if jason comes over(hopefully but it is up to him) i can make the swiss choc. i have noticed i dont use it unless he comes over and i remember it is in there but of course whe i go to make coffee i always see it and i told my dad not to touch it, and my dad was like "i wont touch it,it's yours and jasons" so yeah ..... im watching Dr. phil and he is talking about sex and normality what the hell?? american's have nothing better to do withther time well wait actually i am listening to it sinve i have no tv in my dads office hmmm.... need laptop. ok well d/p is tlaking abot uwhat is normal and what isnt right now he was like blah blahblah and then this guy is like blahblah i can only get turned on by watching ppl style there hair a spacific way" and all the while im sitting here thinking ok that is def weird hmmm helpo yes you need that...ok what is the fun for the wife if she cant style her hair diffrently and turn you on...ok what ever now there talking aobotu this chick who absolutly thinks sex is the grossest thing (my opinion yeah some things are a little off/weird/gross etc) OMG ppl it is norm, it is nature hello.wiat why am i saying this and defending sex i have never even attempted this .... i need coffee this is a FACT!

Dude i am so indicisive i have noticed that but i eman owell i took this personality test thing and it was like you are a director and then like also a somthing else i cant think at the moment but eya h and some of th etrais were right others were totally off base have to figure out aht and this is what i did in school yesterday i had the female speaker twice she was nice got me all hooked on SCH's and personaliy things and eveything else b/c i had the same techer for 2 diff classes. so eyah the 2nd time i saw the speacker i was like ok im going on the comp you mind i already saw/heard youonce he was like ok what ever and talked to me more about SCH after she was doen and everything. so yean need to find a college that will accept and double major an double minor i actually found what i want to majors and minors in YES i am so happy now to find a college somewhere that will accept it.....i have like 4 places akastates in mind and like 3 actual colleges in mind but yeah i dont know how i am oing to fo the college thing when yeah but owell i will figure it all out i walways do.....anywho i know what i want to do with my life so kick ass!!! woot woot for me!

so i tink i will let you all read thins and stop typing although i have tons of crap running though my head ..... anyways byebye i will prob post if i get uber bored today...

Jason woot woot!