worst week

Friday- ran in to my ex boyfriend at bean. he wouldnt go away. he started talking about "old times" so i went to talk to chaz. thank god for chaz. he left after kait came out to get away from him.
Sat- My knee is the size of a baseball. i cant walk
Sun - Jason breaks up with me at 8:21pm
Mon- still in shock, knee is still baseball, and i attend like 4 doc apptments
Today- still in shock adn hanging on to memories and praying things will go back to the way yhey were, knee has deswelled a little i can walk with out my grandmothers cane (yes yes i had to walk with a cane get over it lol it was a funny site) i have a doc apmt with a cyropracter agian today at three. im taking antiinflamitorie pills so that is helping. oh and i leave for VA Beach this Thursday woopie. all calls are welcome at anytime. i dont feel like updating or anything so that was a short version of my week. i'll prob upday after july unless there is a net cafe in va beach. i havent been to bean lately b/c of the knee so somebody please tell chaz that means you Chip or Tom that i am out of town, so he wont worry or anything since i have become a "regular". Thank you.

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Tom you made a strike in my little book of bad. What were you thinking buddy???? that was fully persona non grata in society! if you dont know what persona non grata means look it up. you just dont do that man. BAD ANGRY CORVETTE KID! very uncouth for me. not good. thank you Kristin and Kait i love you two very much your awesome! i have been putting in apps. everywere i have an interview well the 2nd interview with denny's i really dont want to work there. but i hope i get the old navy job hence fashion and apparel major, um im going to pick up an app for bob evans so i would actually llike to work there. dennys no bob evans yes. either 3ay i will get out of the ohouse and be making money which i desperately need. i am still uber pissed that my parents went and spent most of my inheritance/ trust fund whatever its gone i am left with nothing practically. yippie for me. i am looking into after i get a job getting a car since i will have my liscence soon. After i get a car im going back to JC,MTM, and ZOOM also submiting pics and resimes into someother agencies Whilhemina, Face, Elite, ect. im going on vacation to some beach the 23- 1st and i doubt i will have net access unless i find a net cafe. mymom said that there will be "kids my age there" and i get to hang with them...yay....im thrilled can you tell? actually it might be nice i mena i can go out clubbing and stuff without the rents being all like OMG your goin alone. so yeah i guess it has its perks. mom said i need to "start exercising" so yeah apparently i am all pudgy again. i find this hard to beleave when i only weigh umm 100. owell exersice = w/l so dbldgt here i come agian! so i might start to go with Katie and run around the block or at least start exersicin on the threadmil. blah i hate to exersice. whay you ask b/c when i do i do it until i cant do it anymore until my body gives and i fall that is why i dont exersice i push myself to hard. owell whatever if it makes mom happy then i will start again. im nervouse about the interview i dont wnat that job i really dont i want to old navy job or the library job those would be nice both of them seeing as i can only work 10 hours a week at 85% min wage for the 1st 3 months of the lib job then i get min wage and up but anywho, Tina helped me with that app. she is a nice person. she also offered me a job once she gets some things streightened out. so i am workign twards 4 things pln tckt, lptop, fun loving gift and car. so i can aquire those easily with at least 2 jobs i already have a heads up on some of them so yay for aunt brenda and data entry. i have become a regular at bean. define regular i am there every day. this is long and i am a boring person so later

busy busy busy me

yes so tomarrow i have an interiew with Denny's yay go me. my mom brang hom e an app. for old navy. She is really into this job thing. i mean i am to b/c it will get ome out of the house and stuff but hmmm... i just wnat to get the jobs to a get out of the house and b get $$ so i can go and see jason b. shop and c have money at hand for cafe. so yeah that is that. i have been spending the last 2 days rearranging my room. it looks like hell right now i mean there is stuff everywere. my desk is currently inthe middle of the hall between the office and my room the dog can barly get thorugh to both lol but hey i am getting there i needed change in the room so i did. i movec my bed next to my window and my talldresser werewmy desk use to be and my dest will go were my bed uyse to be and my stereo is now currentyl on top of my ling. drowers. so that is kinda cool its hidden. um i havnt been able to ghet out of the house much but i did get out sat. and mon. nights. i will prob go out tonight agian i have no clue i dont even know what day it is. i had like caffee overdose on sat night and it jsut all was horrible. not fun at all. nonono. never doing that again. it was so bad. i felt like shit so i went outside and kristin americopr kristin adn i talked then we both felt like puking so we went inside and i went up to the loft schilled a little had some esspresso thingie chip congered up. about 5 min later went to the bathroom and it came up. never knew i drank so much stuff that night until that moment. anyways it wasnt prertty. so yeah that kinda killed me. then like 20 min everyone went to see a movie at the hotel i couldnt go so i talked to my kristin from school and she drove me home. all in all it was a fun time sat, i got to go to s/h and shop, to a new cafe, adn hang with chip adn kristin a/c kristin. aso it was all good. mon i jsut chilled at bean and few with jeff and chaz adn others. nothing big. i hmm gotta go vclean room some more and work on the bus. i did tha ttoday and sunday too. i have to clear my face up and start taking better care of myself for vacationadn so when i get back i can get adam to get some shots of me for a comp card ect. so later.

Code blue

emothional breakdown here i come watson "code blue"

Hieronymus Bosch

Hieronymus Bosch, is one of my new favorite Artists. He is a surrealist. i will post soem of his stuff when i get a chance at home. i erally like the Garden of earthly delights. its a good painting. He is from the early 1500's and his work is very unrealistic very um... not his time i guess you could say. i will tell you more later abotu Bosch.

anyways i am a little off today. soemthing isnt right and i just cant pinpoint what it is. maybe it is my nerves. but anyas toni and joey are doing horrible they are falling apart. hjoe has stopped calling/msgng toni and saying that he loves her and eveything its just not good. toni is going crazy b/ of this. my mind is distrought b/ cim so uncure of everything right now. maybe b.c its that time of the month or maybe im just losing my mind i dont want to be like toni adn joey. i cant handle that. i dont know what to do. maybe im jsut a perosn who thinks to much. i want to cry but i acant im in school. i need to go find kauit and pull her out of a class or talk to mis watson or something i dont want another breakdownnot at the end of the year.

Chris Parker a friend from my old school OD and died. i jsut found that out. life is peachy my one friend is in jail and will possibly be tried as an adult for stabbing someone in school and now i find out that a friend of mine has died. i need coffee and sleeping pills. he had painkillers and he i guess might not have ment to but might have i dont know. His gradfather had a heart attack at the funeral and died there. this is horrible CLHS is in shambles and i am goign to a party at bean to night via Duliez and i am going to be cheery and nothing will be wrong. but yet everything is. that is fine noon e has to know. im going to be perfect like always and not show i am hurting. i want to cry right now. tomany people have died to many fucking peole have died. and i would have. CL isnt a good place yet i and everyone else is drawn to it. its like a horror story by stephan king. a twisted horrid dream and i cant wake up. he graduated last year. he had his whole life ahead of him, i dont htink he did it on purpose at all. "noone will be able to match his sense of humor" as whitney (my oldes friend, who jsut told me about Chris) says. im at a loss for words im going to go be happy and torn inside goodbye.

there was a stabbing at Trinity this is a suprise!

yeah this isnt spose to happen in Trinity, it is spose to happen at my old school, not here. Gah so im going to 1st pd and in the middle of the hall cc decides to fight this chick so she goes off on her im like "cc no not here" she was gone they got into it and CC was like "every been stabed bith ever been stabed?" she pulls out siccors and stabs her twice. so yeah im screaming at CC as soon as she pulls it. needless to say i will have a nice bruse in the next few weeks. girl gets stabed in the arm around her muscle in her upper arm and after i try to grab the siccors from cc she slams me and says" stay out of it im not hurting you stay out of it". so im done i just get up adn watch the rest of it, mind you a teacher has been notified. CC jams the siccors into the chicks back now then Mrs. Burty comes and was like "CC what are you doing? you just stabed her, and why are you all red? (refers to me) me shrugs, meanwhile the other short black chick was like gone her friend was taking her out the backway with a nice stream/trail of blood following. Mrs. Burty took CC to the office. this is how ludicrise are teachers are in here CC STILL HAD THE SICCCORS HELLLLOOO take them off of he. that was the end of it. So i go into math class and am like "Ms. richie CC will be out for a while she just stabed some short black chick" She looks up, what did you say dear? what happened to you? and then i repeated myself. Luke came in adn was like ' hOly shit Adrianne why did you steph in you should have just let them kill eachother" steve:" your goign to have a hugh ass bruise" me: " yep well noone did anything adn i am use to shit like this at my old school so drop it" it was intresting trinity isnt spose to have "stabbings" Conn. Lake is but not trinity. whatever so that made my day exciting. adn it is only 2nd period.